its seems at times that you don't know how special you are to me. When I tell you its seems that you dismiss my hearts affections for some worldly thing that you desire. If its not that then its someone that you know in your heart of hearts will never have the same connection that you and I have. As a matter of fact you choose versions of me portrayed in various hues that are very close but will never be able to compare to me and what I do, who I am and all that I stand for. I guess I need to stand more to understand that I don't owe you anything although I have given you everything before you even attempted to give me a wedding ring. My heart cried out for you twice and you looked at it like it was speaking another language. But this language of love is to be understood by all people who deserve it...you know those people who are worth it. Inadvertently I am telling myself much that I do not desire to hear, read or give my attention to... and it seems when anyone mentions you my heart and mind become subdued; weak as I relinquish my rights to all that I own which makes me a higher me because I desire to be someone who makes your world turn and make you yearn to be high with me; inside of me...
But I digress, I would like for you to know that Ive always given you my best. But my best seems to be too much for you and you would rather settle for less. I cant change your mind but I do wish that I could change the times and allow your eyes to be mine and your heart to do the time so you can see just how blind love can make you. How even when the answers are right in front of your face, you look everywhere else for them...(LESSON IN LIFE: you don't get credit for partially answered questions)
I cant change your heart but I can change my mind and redefine what I felt could have been special for both of us as a simple love letter fathomed in my brain. I fall back from all that I loved about you; I'll stop comparing everyone I meet to you because maybe someone better with eyes and a heart that are more clever will approach me and not want to let me go like you have done...
But before I become bitter I'll go back to day one...I'll just say hello and let that be done...
I'll keep walking I promise and theres no looking back, no eye contact so I wont have time to react. I'm sure you'll be happy with the choice that you've made to avoid a conversation with someone who would have gave, you everything in her power under the sun; simply to be considered your number one.
